January Resolution

January

My Happiness Project

So, I was reading in my monthly Woman's Day about this lady who was attorney turned author. It interested me b/c both were once my passions before I became overwhelmed by life. Nonetheless, she had decided to start a 12 month project based on her own happiness. I thought it was a great idea for me. Although I am exceedingly blessed with a beautiful home, children, husband, etc. I often get bogged down in my own perfection and always feel I have accomplished less than I should have in a day. Even though I know that is not necessarily the case b/c I usually check everything off of my list. I am the perpetual list maker. I have daily lists, monthly lists, yearly lists, and even menus and grocery store lists segregated by aisles. I have hit the realization that this is my life. As a child I dreamed of all sorts of things and here I was at almost 30 years old. The realization hit, that this is my life, this is what I have become. It is a time of self-reflection and evaluation. Have I done enough for my family, my society, my God? My biggest fear would be to look back and say I wish I had done more. I am not going to wait until I am 80 to evaluate and appreciate my life. I am going to do it now...little, by little every day. No, it isn't a mid-life crisis. I want to be the best me I can be. I want to take time to appreciate how blessed and lucky I am.

So, this year I am going to ask myself everyday "What do I want from life? ... I want to be happy and I want my children and family to be happy". What makes me happy? I am going to focus on concrete, measureable items that I can check off (yes another list). So, this week I plan to make a list of what makes me happy.